On the Tracks

I leave for the senior breakfast in 10 minutes.. and in 12 hours I'll officially no longer be a high school student. I can't believe this moment has finally come.

Anyway, I've been having a lot of fun for the past week. There has been a lot of nudity (nonsexual of course), frank discussions of sex/masturbation, inappropriate touching, and Janet saying really inappropriate things to everyone.

There has also been a lot of good clean fun too. On Wednesday, a bunch of us went to the zoo and on Tuesday I took JS to see Lemuria and The Ergs play at the Knitting Factory. I had an amazing time. She, on the other hand, not really. But I sat through that weird danish music for her. At some point last week, a bunch of us chipped in on a puzzle and we still haven't finished it.

This weekend will be fun. I have a bunch of parties to go to and I don't have to go to work all weekend. Woo!

- Suburban Bleach

Fixing Rubble, Building Us

Oh man. So much has happened in the past week.

First off, there was drama between me and Janet about FT. I basically admitted to everyone that I'm crushing on FT and despite knowing that Janet started aggressively flirting with her and it made me feel pretty shitty. We haven't really talked about it much since Janet is in Florida right now but I've decided I'm not mad at her anymore. I just don't think we'll be as close as we were before. 

Prom was on Thursday and that was a blast. I danced the whole night with KG, PH, and RK. There was some slight prama though because CB drunk dialed me during the night (she and AF decided not to go) and made a big stink over SB going to Cape Cod for after prom with us. Everything was settled by the end of the dance because SB decided not to go because she realized there was a lot of shit going on because of her being invited. 

After that big hubaloo, AF, JS, CB, RK, and I left for Cape Cod on Friday afternoon but not until after I found out that CB was almost hospitalized the night before for alcohol poisoning but it turned out that she was just really drunk. According to AF, it was pretty intense.

Cape Cod was pretty awesome. We went to Provincetown on Saturday but I got kind of ill and fell asleep on a beach while the rest of my friends went shopping. After that we went to the drive in movie theater and saw Kung Fu Panda. It was not very good. We went swimming in the lake by the house we stayed in on Sunday and left later that day.

Monday was the senior trip and we went to Dorney Park. I had a lot of fun but CB got a little freaked out because she found out that JS told SB about what happened on Thursday night. SB has a bit of a reputation for spreading things around and CB really does not want the entire school knowing that she got completely shit faced the night of prom and was almost sent to the hospital. Besides that the day was pretty uneventful. I went on a few roller coasters (which is very impressive for me since I'm such a pussy about stuff like that). 

The rest of the week has been pretty uneventful but I super stressed because I have a project due tomorrow and another due on Friday and then on Tuesday I have my pre-calc final and I have no clue how I'm going to pass it. Oh well. As long as I don't get rescinded I'll be happy.

-Suburban Bleach

Broken to Blue

A lot of interesting things happened this weekend. The first was that Janet admitted to AF and I that she was hooking up JR's little sister, NR. On Saturday a bunch of us hung out and NR came by at one point and I really don't understand how they don't consider themselves to be in a relationship. They were acting all couple-y and making out a lot. It made all of us pretty uncomfortable. But atleast I know now that Janet was just fucking with me all that time.

The second interesting thing that happened this weekend was when both AF and RK told me they thought I was in love with Tofu and the reason I had such an intense reaction to our friendship ending was because it was actually heartbreak. I'm not sure about it. We had a very intense friendship and there were times where I felt like something would happen but I don't think I was in love with her as much as a I loved her as a friend. Whatever, I officially cut her out of my life on Friday. I unadded her on livejournal.

The last (but not least in any way) interesting thing that happened this weekend was that I found myself extremely attracted to FT. She's just so adorable and she's the only person who is willing to have a two person mosh pit in the middle of a parking lot. Erk, I dunno. Janet also finds her attractive and we're basically competing for her now. Maybe something will happen at Gay Prom? I dunno.

So yeah, a lot of shit went down plus I busted my need up pretty badly and I can't walk very easily. Awesome. Not.

-Suburban Bleach

The Kill Fix

Yesterday, my suspicion that Janet was attracted to me was confirmed. AF told me that she had told her and RK the other day.

I basically hung out with Janet the entire day along with AF, RK, JS, and FT and again she was super physical with me. At one point she kissed my finger and I asked her why she did it and she said "I really want to kiss you" really quietly so only I could hear her. Nothing happened though. This is kind of frustrating...

Oh and I think I saw an ex of mine for the first time in a year and a half but I'm not sure.

-Suburban Bleach

Antiseptic

The whole Janet situation is kind of really confusing me. We flirt constantly and always joke about hooking up but whenever it seems like something is going to happen, she leaves. Maybe I'm reading the situation completely wrong and she's just being friendly. I thought for a while that I was totally over her but obviously not since I would hook up with her in a second if I had the chance.

So yeah, in other friend related news, SB has decided that AF, RK, JS, CB, and I are exclusive and is mad at us. It's so ridiculous. We always invite her to hang out but she is either with her other friends or her sister. It's not like we're not going to hang out because she has other plans. It's so bratty of her to even think that we are doing anything wrong by having a good time without her when she is probably doing the same. Urgh.

Onto a different topic...

I don't really like writing about my drug experiences because I fear that a college might look at this or something but last night and the night before CB and I tried a mixture of weed and sal and it was pretty much the most amazing thing the first night and the freakiest thing the second night. I really really want to try Sal by itself because I don't feel like my trip was that intense either time and I really want to have a mind blowing experience.

I really need to fall asleep. Those espresso shots at 10 pm were not a good ideal.

-Suburban Bleach

This Room's Regular

My computer broke. Awesome, not really. I always forget how addicted to the internet I am until I don't have a computer to use for five days in a row. Hopefully it'll be fixed by next week so I can have my next fix.

So, anyway, life has been pretty weird lately. On Saturday I saw Janet for the first time in a few months and that was pretty cool except for the part where she straddled me and almost kissed me. I really don't understand her. Does she want to hook up with me or just fuck with my head?

Later that night, CB invited JS, AF, MW, PW, and I to her neighbor's house party. It was really weird. We got there first and had a bunch of fun playing Beirut and dancing around and then all of these jocky guys who showed up and it got awkward. Especially when AF drunkenly admitted to still having feelings for her ex boyfriend and MW hooked up with this random guy who was in her graduating class.

So yeah maybe no more house parties for me. Especially since I become the responsible one and spend the entire party running around the house checking on all my friends to make she that they haven't passed out or hooked up with anyone.

-Suburban Bleach

Rooftop Empathy

Wow, its been two weeks since my last post. Not much has changed except that I'm completely done with APs forever. Thank god. All the stress associated with them is really not worth it.

Anyway, I'm officially going to the school Maine because according to my mom, L&C is not taking anyone off the wait list this year. Oh well. I bet I'll love the other school just as much.

I really can't wait for prom/the senior trip/GRADUATION. I have been in this town for way too long and it's really wearing me down.

This summer should be awesome. I can't wait.

-Suburban Bleach