I Can't Tell You

"I'd like things to go back to the way they were."

"We're friends and this stuff happens amung friends. "

Seriously, fuck my life.

K.V. T-shirt

So that straight girl I talked about in my last post turned out to be not as straight as I thought.

I threw a party tonight (or I guess last night technically) and she showed up. We both got kind of drunk and laid on my bed. At one point I told her I thought she was cute and that I really liked her and that I wanted to kiss her. She let me kiss her. She told me it felt right with me, that she wanted to be with me, but the age difference freaked her out (we're only two years apart). I told her we could have an amazing summer and she agreed.

She leaves for a summer art program in Baltimore on Saturday for all of July. I hope things don't change over the course of a month.

Wow, what a night.

-Suburban Bleach

TV Kiss

It's been awhile. I know. I don't really need this thing anymore. There isn't much I don't want my friends to know about anymore...

Except the girls.

Two to be exact.

One is completely perfect for me but also completely straight. I saw her for the first time since January yesterday and we talked for two and a half hours in our favorite coffee shop. It was so amazing. I don't know another person I can do that with. Why must she be straight?

I invited her and one of her friends to a party a my house and she showed up. I got trashed and tried my hardest not to come on to her. I think I succeeded. I have one more week of spring break. I know nothing will happen with her but maybe we'll have some more amazing conversations.

The other girl is a little more attainable in that she is bisexual and goes to my college. I feel like there is a flirtation and that if I were more outgoing something could happen. Too bad I'm not.

Well that's pretty much all I've got to say.

-Suburban Bleach