Yesterday, my suspicion that Janet was attracted to me was confirmed. AF told me that she had told her and RK the other day.
I basically hung out with Janet the entire day along with AF, RK, JS, and FT and again she was super physical with me. At one point she kissed my finger and I asked her why she did it and she said "I really want to kiss you" really quietly so only I could hear her. Nothing happened though. This is kind of frustrating...
Oh and I think I saw an ex of mine for the first time in a year and a half but I'm not sure.
-Suburban Bleach
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Antiseptic
The whole Janet situation is kind of really confusing me. We flirt constantly and always joke about hooking up but whenever it seems like something is going to happen, she leaves. Maybe I'm reading the situation completely wrong and she's just being friendly. I thought for a while that I was totally over her but obviously not since I would hook up with her in a second if I had the chance.
So yeah, in other friend related news, SB has decided that AF, RK, JS, CB, and I are exclusive and is mad at us. It's so ridiculous. We always invite her to hang out but she is either with her other friends or her sister. It's not like we're not going to hang out because she has other plans. It's so bratty of her to even think that we are doing anything wrong by having a good time without her when she is probably doing the same. Urgh.
Onto a different topic...
I don't really like writing about my drug experiences because I fear that a college might look at this or something but last night and the night before CB and I tried a mixture of weed and sal and it was pretty much the most amazing thing the first night and the freakiest thing the second night. I really really want to try Sal by itself because I don't feel like my trip was that intense either time and I really want to have a mind blowing experience.
I really need to fall asleep. Those espresso shots at 10 pm were not a good ideal.
-Suburban Bleach
So yeah, in other friend related news, SB has decided that AF, RK, JS, CB, and I are exclusive and is mad at us. It's so ridiculous. We always invite her to hang out but she is either with her other friends or her sister. It's not like we're not going to hang out because she has other plans. It's so bratty of her to even think that we are doing anything wrong by having a good time without her when she is probably doing the same. Urgh.
Onto a different topic...
I don't really like writing about my drug experiences because I fear that a college might look at this or something but last night and the night before CB and I tried a mixture of weed and sal and it was pretty much the most amazing thing the first night and the freakiest thing the second night. I really really want to try Sal by itself because I don't feel like my trip was that intense either time and I really want to have a mind blowing experience.
I really need to fall asleep. Those espresso shots at 10 pm were not a good ideal.
-Suburban Bleach
Thursday, May 22, 2008
This Room's Regular
My computer broke. Awesome, not really. I always forget how addicted to the internet I am until I don't have a computer to use for five days in a row. Hopefully it'll be fixed by next week so I can have my next fix.
So, anyway, life has been pretty weird lately. On Saturday I saw Janet for the first time in a few months and that was pretty cool except for the part where she straddled me and almost kissed me. I really don't understand her. Does she want to hook up with me or just fuck with my head?
Later that night, CB invited JS, AF, MW, PW, and I to her neighbor's house party. It was really weird. We got there first and had a bunch of fun playing Beirut and dancing around and then all of these jocky guys who showed up and it got awkward. Especially when AF drunkenly admitted to still having feelings for her ex boyfriend and MW hooked up with this random guy who was in her graduating class.
So yeah maybe no more house parties for me. Especially since I become the responsible one and spend the entire party running around the house checking on all my friends to make she that they haven't passed out or hooked up with anyone.
-Suburban Bleach
So, anyway, life has been pretty weird lately. On Saturday I saw Janet for the first time in a few months and that was pretty cool except for the part where she straddled me and almost kissed me. I really don't understand her. Does she want to hook up with me or just fuck with my head?
Later that night, CB invited JS, AF, MW, PW, and I to her neighbor's house party. It was really weird. We got there first and had a bunch of fun playing Beirut and dancing around and then all of these jocky guys who showed up and it got awkward. Especially when AF drunkenly admitted to still having feelings for her ex boyfriend and MW hooked up with this random guy who was in her graduating class.
So yeah maybe no more house parties for me. Especially since I become the responsible one and spend the entire party running around the house checking on all my friends to make she that they haven't passed out or hooked up with anyone.
-Suburban Bleach
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Rooftop Empathy
Wow, its been two weeks since my last post. Not much has changed except that I'm completely done with APs forever. Thank god. All the stress associated with them is really not worth it.
Anyway, I'm officially going to the school Maine because according to my mom, L&C is not taking anyone off the wait list this year. Oh well. I bet I'll love the other school just as much.
I really can't wait for prom/the senior trip/GRADUATION. I have been in this town for way too long and it's really wearing me down.
This summer should be awesome. I can't wait.
-Suburban Bleach
Anyway, I'm officially going to the school Maine because according to my mom, L&C is not taking anyone off the wait list this year. Oh well. I bet I'll love the other school just as much.
I really can't wait for prom/the senior trip/GRADUATION. I have been in this town for way too long and it's really wearing me down.
This summer should be awesome. I can't wait.
-Suburban Bleach
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Never Ending Always
Holy crap! It's May. How is that possible? This year has really flown by. I can't believe it. Next week is APs, then in two weeks my brother graduates from college (that is so freaky). After that its prom (thank god I finally got myself a prom dress) and finally I graduate from high school and leave my shitty little town.
The whole wait list business is killing me. I really really want to go to L&C but I'm getting super anxious. Everyday I come home waiting for the phone to ring, hoping its them. If it doesn't work out I always have COA. I visited it over spring break and I remember exactly what I loved about it in the first place. I will not be disappointed if I go there but I'm kind of scared that I'll get super bored living in Bar Harbor. Having NYC so close has spoiled me.
I really have nothing else to comment on because college stuff has been all consuming recently. I can't wait until graduation. Only one month and 26 days!
-Suburban Bleach
The whole wait list business is killing me. I really really want to go to L&C but I'm getting super anxious. Everyday I come home waiting for the phone to ring, hoping its them. If it doesn't work out I always have COA. I visited it over spring break and I remember exactly what I loved about it in the first place. I will not be disappointed if I go there but I'm kind of scared that I'll get super bored living in Bar Harbor. Having NYC so close has spoiled me.
I really have nothing else to comment on because college stuff has been all consuming recently. I can't wait until graduation. Only one month and 26 days!
-Suburban Bleach
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