Sundays always make me feel horribly depressed and this Sunday is no exception but I feel even worse because it's my former best friend's birthday. We haven't spoken since last May and I have no plans to ever speak to her again even though she misses being friends with me. I don't think I could forgive her for what she did and if we were to become friends again she would just do it again.
I have a track record with befriending people who don't really care about me but it kind of hurts knowing that I invested so much time in a friendship that she ruined because of her desire to be considered cool by a bunch of assholes.
Whatever, it's over. Our friendship was really over last October after the PSAT.
In more cheery news, I went into the city last night with JS, RM, and AF and we went shopping around Union Square. I got a couple t-shirts from a thrift shop, a cool hat from an outdoor market, and some Buffy comic books from Forbidden Planet. There was a little drama but it was all settled by the end of the night.
Anyway, my guitar came in the mail on Thursday and I haven't stopped practicing since. I really want to get good at it. I used to play guitar in sixth grade but I gave up because I thought it was too hard but there is no way I will give up on myself again.
Alright, I'm off to explore the universe.
-Suburban Bleach
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Sleeping Motor Boy
Wow, I've really been lax in updating this thing. Eh, whatever. It's my journal.
So, I went to Portland this weekend and just got back a few hours ago. It's a really awesome city. I kinda really want to live there one day. Maybe after college. I really loved Lewis and Clark College and it has given me some doubt about whether I want to apply early decision to College of the Atlantic. I'll probably figure it out by December 1.
I'm very very happy that I'm finally done with looking at colleges for a month and I only have one left, University of Washington during Thanksgiving Break. Yes! I can finally be social again. I have been horribly deprived of contact with my buddies outside of school.
Anyway, crush update: On Friday, basically all of my friends were either on an Italian class trip or not in school so I started talking to crush girl and I found out a lot about her that I didn't know like that she has no clue what underground pop punk or american hardcore actually is (despite claiming to be a huge fan) but the fact that she thinks she likes that stuff makes me like her more.
On a more somber note, a few really shitty things happened this week. First, OiNK, an awesome bit torrent website was hijacked by Interpol (the police, not the band) and the owner was arrested.
Second, which I was really upset over almost all of yesterday, is that Lance Hahn, one of the greatest musicians in the modern pop punk movement, died on Sunday. I love J Church and Cringer and I think he was an amazing musician and I really can't believe he's dead. The lines "I don't believe in god above or the devil below/And I don't believe I'll need some proof before I go" from his song "Blasphemous" have been going through my head the past few days. God, I just with shit like this didn't happen to good people.
Sorry that this ended so somberly.
-Suburban Bleach
So, I went to Portland this weekend and just got back a few hours ago. It's a really awesome city. I kinda really want to live there one day. Maybe after college. I really loved Lewis and Clark College and it has given me some doubt about whether I want to apply early decision to College of the Atlantic. I'll probably figure it out by December 1.
I'm very very happy that I'm finally done with looking at colleges for a month and I only have one left, University of Washington during Thanksgiving Break. Yes! I can finally be social again. I have been horribly deprived of contact with my buddies outside of school.
Anyway, crush update: On Friday, basically all of my friends were either on an Italian class trip or not in school so I started talking to crush girl and I found out a lot about her that I didn't know like that she has no clue what underground pop punk or american hardcore actually is (despite claiming to be a huge fan) but the fact that she thinks she likes that stuff makes me like her more.
On a more somber note, a few really shitty things happened this week. First, OiNK, an awesome bit torrent website was hijacked by Interpol (the police, not the band) and the owner was arrested.
Second, which I was really upset over almost all of yesterday, is that Lance Hahn, one of the greatest musicians in the modern pop punk movement, died on Sunday. I love J Church and Cringer and I think he was an amazing musician and I really can't believe he's dead. The lines "I don't believe in god above or the devil below/And I don't believe I'll need some proof before I go" from his song "Blasphemous" have been going through my head the past few days. God, I just with shit like this didn't happen to good people.
Sorry that this ended so somberly.
-Suburban Bleach
Monday, October 15, 2007
History Is History
I hate to sound like a stereotypical lesbian but my cat is so freaking adorable. I just went into the kitchen to put up a pot for pasta and my cat was standing on the island and when she's usually up there I shmoose with her but today I just stared at her to see her reaction. She was taken aback and stood still for a few minutes and then started leaning forward like she was saying, "Come on, already!" It was so cute that I can almost forgive her for sneaking out of the house today.
Anyway, I think I may be crushing on someone but if my friends ever found out, they would freak out because many of them have a weird past with her. I don't really know her that well but lately I have been trying to become friendly with her because, despite my friends' issues, I think she's okay (and hot). I dunno what I'm gonna do about this weird crush thing. I'm not going to act on it because she identifies as straight (despite how much she sets off my gaydar) so it's not like my friends will ever find out.
Whatever.
-Suburban Bleach
Anyway, I think I may be crushing on someone but if my friends ever found out, they would freak out because many of them have a weird past with her. I don't really know her that well but lately I have been trying to become friendly with her because, despite my friends' issues, I think she's okay (and hot). I dunno what I'm gonna do about this weird crush thing. I'm not going to act on it because she identifies as straight (despite how much she sets off my gaydar) so it's not like my friends will ever find out.
Whatever.
-Suburban Bleach
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Dreamt This Was A Castle
Wow, I haven't updated in a little while. Oops. I have been very busy though. Traveling, homework, college stuff. It can seriously cut into a girl's free time.
Anyway, last weekend I headed up to Maine with my mother to check out College of the Atlantic. IT WAS FREAKING AMAZING! I loved every little thing about it. Holy crap! Early decision for sure.
I also visit SUNY Genoseo on Saturday. Eh, it wasn't horrible but I'm excited about it or anything. There is a Tim Hortons in town though and they have the greatest donuts in existence (this is coming from someone who used to work at a donut and coffee chain).
Now I'm off to do something important, I guess.
-Suburban Bleach
Anyway, last weekend I headed up to Maine with my mother to check out College of the Atlantic. IT WAS FREAKING AMAZING! I loved every little thing about it. Holy crap! Early decision for sure.
I also visit SUNY Genoseo on Saturday. Eh, it wasn't horrible but I'm excited about it or anything. There is a Tim Hortons in town though and they have the greatest donuts in existence (this is coming from someone who used to work at a donut and coffee chain).
Now I'm off to do something important, I guess.
-Suburban Bleach
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Am I Missing Something
Ugh, I hate being sick, especially since I can't be absent from school. I hope I'm not sick when I go to Maine to visit College of the Atlantic. That would be lame.
Anyway, I went to Florida for the weekend to visit my grandfather and look at University of Miami. I did not like the school at all. It has 16 frats an 13 sororities. Jesus Christ! Not my type of places. Although my brother thought it would be a good school for me. I could never live in that weather. I'm a sweatshirt and jeans type of girl.
Uh, in other news, I learned yesterday that SG has signed up with the Marines and is shipping out in July. I can't believe it. He is a really nice guy, and although he isn't that good at school, I think he should have considered something else. I really hope nothing happens to him.
Bleh, on a lighter note, I really want a girlfriend but there is no one who I would want to date (beside Janet but she's basically out of the picture at this point) and there isn''t really an abundance of lesbian/bisexual girls at my school. I guess I'll have fun with another year of singledom. At least I have my friends.
Alright, I'm off to be tutored.
-Suburban Bleach
Anyway, I went to Florida for the weekend to visit my grandfather and look at University of Miami. I did not like the school at all. It has 16 frats an 13 sororities. Jesus Christ! Not my type of places. Although my brother thought it would be a good school for me. I could never live in that weather. I'm a sweatshirt and jeans type of girl.
Uh, in other news, I learned yesterday that SG has signed up with the Marines and is shipping out in July. I can't believe it. He is a really nice guy, and although he isn't that good at school, I think he should have considered something else. I really hope nothing happens to him.
Bleh, on a lighter note, I really want a girlfriend but there is no one who I would want to date (beside Janet but she's basically out of the picture at this point) and there isn''t really an abundance of lesbian/bisexual girls at my school. I guess I'll have fun with another year of singledom. At least I have my friends.
Alright, I'm off to be tutored.
-Suburban Bleach
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